Tuesday, August 26, 2014

wilted under the veil..

I have been thinking lately about my place in my own world. There are shifts and ebbs and flows in me.

My non-Dom hub is still chugging along in my life but I don't feel as I used to feel. We went away together for a week, no family, just us. It was like wearing a comfortable old jumper. It was nice, we shared walks and meals but I was aware that I was going through familiar motions. Learned behaviours, habitual movement, routine workaday gesture.
There is no heat.
No fire,
no life.

I feel sad for this loss. I am aware of a contradiction though.  I am currently sitting on the couch with the laptop on my lap and my feet resting on non-Dom's lap.

in truth I crave the freedom of no relationship. No responsibility.

Is it my dalliance with the s in D/s, my mambo with the m in SM, the boogaloo in the b to His D in the BDSM, that hs brought me to this?

The grass is ALWAYS greener is it not?

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...and I am a good girl Daddy...

So naughty and perhaps a little crass..but after all thats the pleasure in it :)

Sunday, August 10, 2014

public exposure

She sat with Him in the restaurant. They had been for a ride around the country side on His motorbike. He had fed His girl on delicious morsels and sweet drinks while she warmed her cold skin by the open fire.

At the end of their day,she sat at the table by His side protected from the outside world. He wanted His girl. The glint in His eye was unmistakable. She had learned not to say anything when He was like this, she knew she would come off second best. To challenge Him. To disbelieve Him. To say no to Him in a fit of frenzy, would lead to her downfall. She had learned to do as she was told without question, without challenge or He would feel Himself compelled to prove His power over her, His ownership.

'Undo your pants'.

Eyes wide, breathless in an instant, to resist, hesitate or delay would make things worse threefold.
Unzipped and unbuttoned. His hand drove into her already slick pussy taking her breath away. His hand grabbed her wet pussy flesh and mound forcing from her a squeal. He meant to make her squeal. She flushed, her eyes darting to the other patrons in the bar, the barmaid casually reaching to glasses and fussing around the end of the bar where all she had to do was look up in the girls direction and she would see what a slut this girl was.

The girl whispered in a frustrated tone,  'Oh why doesn't she move to the other end of the bar!'

His large fingers slipped into the girl's pussy. The girl thought she might wither with embarrassment. She searched the ceiling for cameras. She searched the other patrons. No one seemed to have noticed. She fumbled next to her throwing her scarf over that which she knew was so plainly on show. Her mind rocked. She wished for an end to the delicious punishment. She was torn between the panic of public exposure and the heavenly play in her pants.

Finally, He pulled His fingers from her pussy and pushed them between her lips and into her mouth. She tasted herself, her heat. She was salty. He pulled His fingers away and immediately kissed her mouth.

'Do your pants up.'

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just like this

This picture evokes in me all the things that it is to be my Sir's girl.
He ties me like this.
He gags me like this.
He sits in front of me like this.
He pulls my nipples into his mouth like this.
He addores me and my body just like this.
And the way the girl looks at Him, adoring His touch, His pleasure, is just like this.

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Saturday, August 9, 2014

7 fundamental characteristics of a Daddy Dom

Sir sent me this and said it described who is was..I read it and He is this person described.

7 Fundamental Characteristics of a Daddy Dom

(Sunny megatron's excepted article written by WizarDavid and which I recommend that you follow the link and read)

Just what is a Daddy Dom? Well, to start with, a Daddy Dom is first and foremost a Dom. He chooses the subcategory of “Daddy” within the lifestyle of dominance and submission (D/s). Let’s get one thing out of the way right at the beginning. A Daddy Dom does not promote incest or pedophilia as the kink may be misunderstood by ignorant people. Rather, in this specific subcategory, the dynamic is set up for the male dominant to be called “Daddy,” and the female submissive (sub) to be called “girl,” “little girl,” or “babygirl,” etc. Rarely is she called “daughter,” as this evokes too many parallels to incest, which Daddies and their girls detest. And while some doms and some subs may have been victims of family violence, incest, or other abuse, Daddy Doms and their girls are not over-represented in these categories any more than the general population.
The following are some of the fundamental characteristics, and indeed needs, that all Daddy dominants seem to share universally: 
1. Her Number One Fan, the Daddy usually believes in his girl more than she herself does, and often uses the wisdom of his age to see her not only for who she is, but also for who she can become. A Daddy’s eyes light up when his girl enters the room. He is proud of her and praises her for not just for what she accomplishes, but for what she attempts, and for who she is. He accepts her for who she is, flaws and all. 
2. And he knows all her flaws because he is also her ultimate Confidant, allowing her to bare her soul to him beyond all others. She may have many different relationships and types of friends in her life. But Daddy will be her “umbrella confidant.” The one with whom she can talk about absolutely anything and trust that what she tells Daddy stays with Daddy. He is the one from whom she withholds nothing. 
3. He is the Protector of his girl against real or perceived threats, dangers, and bad people. Sometimes a little girl just needs to curl up in Daddy’s arms and smile at some of his bluster, and sometimes the Daddy may have to act on his protective instincts. Pity the person who messes with a Daddy’s girl. 
4. Her Teacher and mentor shows her new things that come from a longer and possibly wider set of life experiences. Daddy likes to take his girl to places she has never been, feed her foods she has never eaten, and do activities she has never enjoyed before. He is never so happy as when he can look in her eyes and know he has given her something she has never had before. This also translates into sexual adventurism for some Daddy/girl couples. He symbolically deflowers her on a regular basis, whether that be sexual or just in exposure to new life adventures. 
5. He wants to be her Guide and advisor. As the girl makes her way in the world, Daddy wants to be there to answer her questions, calm her fears, make her insecurities go away, and give her sound advice based on his years of experience. 
6. Anchor. The Daddy dom is an unyielding, unmovable anchor in the storm. No matter what happens in the girl’s life, she knows her Daddy will be right there where he has always been, and she can hold onto that even if she is blinded by her own tears. Daddies know the storm will pass, and she will be safe, but she needs something to hold onto that will not move. 
7. Disciplinarian. When the girl acts badly, she expects to be disciplined or punished for the infraction. Most Daddy dominants find it occasionally difficult to keep this up, especially as the affection for their girl grows. They would love nothing more than to spoil their girls, but they realize this is the path to ruin. One a girl begins to believe she can manipulate Daddy, she no longer sees him as her dominant, unyielding anchor. A girl needs the stability and protection of a man who is more dominant than she is. To demonstrate that characteristic, Daddies must sometimes be excessively strict and rigid, more so than they would in normal relationships. The act of disciplining the girl may be used as part of a sadomasochistic activity.  
In addition to these practically mandatory characteristics, some couples add their own sadism and masochism to the mix, and may use the concept of the wolf or lion and little lamb to describe the way in which the Daddy simultaneously protects his little girl from the world, and yet wants to dominate and devour her sexually. As a sadist, he may create the very tears that he will later kiss away. Sounds sweet, and yet terrifying, if you are not accustomed to the world of sadomasochism in which these participants operate. But to a Daddy and his girl who are into BDSM, this is the most perfect of scenarios they can imagine to act out their fetish.

A Daddy usually knows he is one. He doesn’t have to be convinced of it, or taught how to be a Daddy. He may only need to have his innate Daddy characteristics pointed out to him. It might happen in the throes of a sexual activity when she exclaims “Daddy” for the first time, and the light goes on. Similarly, the little girl usually knows she needs a Daddy without having to be taught how to be his little girl. Once they identify themselves as Daddy/Little Girl, the draw is more powerful than many other forms of attraction, because it is rooted in deep-seated and old emotions that may not have any other outlet.

While some of these characteristics could easily be applied to any good male-female relationship, there are some that require something quite different than the “50/50 partnership” that is so often touted as the most healthy. This is not 50/50. This is a Dominant/submissive relationship, and all the characteristics should be viewed through the lens of D/s. 
While many of the characteristics could also be easily applied to any good D/s or Master/slave relationship, there are some characteristics that are decided different. Not all Masters consider themselves their slave’s number one fan or her umbrella confidant. Teacher, guide, and anchor are not necessarily roles that a Master is required to adopt.
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Thursday, August 7, 2014

naughty daddy's girl

I have been naughty.
I have denied Daddy Sir of His pleasure.
I had reasons..I didn't do it lightly.
I was tired.
It was after midnight.
I text Him for permission.
There was no answer.
I needed it, I needed to sleep.
I wanted it, I wanted to sleep.

I pulled out a little vibrator curved like a U.
I excited my clitoris, my vulva, my vagina.
A gentle buzz.
A massage in the area of mayhem.
So relaxing.
The end of the U slipped into my bottom while the other end entered my slick pussy.
So wonderful. My toes burned with the sensation released from my pussy.
My fingers danced and swirled on my clit.
My pussy clenched and wave after wave moved through me.
Breath expelled.
Muscles taught, tight and release.

She falls deep into a relaxation that bring blessed sleep.
She knows that Daddy Sir will punish her severely.
She was desperate to sleep to stop thinking.
So she was disobedient.
He was not there.
Her punishment will come.

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Saturday, August 2, 2014

a little playmate for little

I have been very brave. I know some may just scoff at my naivity, but this girl is very shy and very cautious, too cautious in this little's view, but it is what it is and I am who I am.

I have written to the girl who is talking Sir. We have exchanged a couple of emails and I have to say I like her very much. Sir says we could be twins! we are so much alike in our outlook and life paths.

This scaredy-little-kitty is feeling very brave, a lot excited and only an itty bitty nervous. This little wants to meet her, if for nothing more than the possibility of a friendship with a like minded girl. I have no real-time confidants with whom to share a tea (or something much stronger) and chat about all issues 'little'. Even with all the great girls here it's still got to be nice to feel the warmth of a rl friendship.

Of course I could be reading wayyyy tooo much into all this..LOL

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i crave the liberation of the slave girl

tori over on Pains Pleasure has just written a beautiful passage in answer to a question, what is it like to be a slave 24/7.  I began to read it to my Non Dom hub and he began to shake his head. I stopped reading it to him and said, 'Your judging...don't judge' He looked at me his thoughts turning over.

'I don't think you know you judge.' The same silent look, thoughts round and round.

He fancies himself a liberal thinker. Lately he has not been so open. I think this has more to do with his jealousy than his real discomfort with the activities of a slave.

He judges me in this same way. I am trapped with him. He has put me in a cage..not the liberating cage of a slave but in cage of guilt and judgement.

I crave the liberation of the slave girl.

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Friday, August 1, 2014

i am a brave scaredy-kitty

Daddy Sir has be corresponding with a woman, a sub woman, with the view to bring into our little world of TTWD.
Its early days but she sounds lovely  (in text) very early days though. Sir sent me one of her emails with His instruction attached, 'your turn'.
My response? I freaked out frankly:
"Daddy u want me to reply to her?
I can't daddy, I am far too shy.
She seems so very elegant.
I feel very slutty compared to her. I swear, I say the c word.
I don't know if I want an ongoing thing with her.
She seems much braver than me.
I don't know what to say to her.
Please don't make me Daddy xxx
I would like to know though if she is able to be a little dominant with me under your instruction.
I will try and write to her.
I will send it through you for approval but I am feeling very nervous about this."
I have a knee jerk reaction to a lot of things and it is a skill I have learned over a lot of years to remain silent while I think. I often fail in employing this skill when Sir leads me to something that makes me nervous.
Make me do it Daddy. Push me Daddy Sir.
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