Monday, May 14, 2012

Sir is not Master

Michael wrote a comment that cut like a hot knife to the core of my dilemma on the last post
Everyone has to find their own balance, but I know my slave/wife Serafina would say this is an example of why an individual can't truly ever serve but a single Dom/Master/Mistress.

When you say that "non-Dom" takes precedence, it should become clear that Sir is a dominant play partner but not truly a Master. By definition, a true Master would always take precedence . . .
At first this comment caused me swoop down, dragging my chin on the ground as the impossibility of what I am searching for sank into my psyche. Michael is very very right and I know it. I have always known it. Somehow I hoped I could experience serving (to use the popular vernacular) a Master-Sir while still honouring my non-Dom.

Nope, can't be done. The best I can hope for is to learn through play. To pretend to serve (that vernacular again). The Master-Sir will be a 'Dominant play partner' nothing more, nothing less. Is this then a reason to risk the happiness of my non-Dom? I broached the subject with non-Dom (who by the way has begun to control the pantie issue with some amount of structure!). On advice from another source (Ty Daddy), I explained to non-Dom that if he was able to really step up, to take the bull by the horns, control the slut by the short and curly's, the delicious little whore would quite possibly not ever feel the need to search for another. His answer surprised me..made me a little hot and again gave me that permission I have courted for a very long time.

'There's something about sending you off to be used, punished by another man who will send you back to me red arsed, that I like...a lot'

I do love it when my non-Dom expresses his kink.

So, I agree 100% with Michael's and Serafina's point. I don't like it but i agree with it. Unfortunately not everyone and I am included amongst this unfortunate lot, has had the luck to find the One who is their significant other AND their Dom/Master/Mistress. Ours is a fate that does not hold with it the perfect conditions to 'truly ever serve but a single Dom/Master/Mistress.'


Bill Brandt: Camden Hill



6 comments:

  1. It is not perfect but it sounds pretty good if he sends you off to another to be punished and returned to him with a red arse. That sounds like it would be good for you.

    FD

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    1. well FD I don't deny that the red arse does sound good for me..but in my deepest hearts desire, I wish it was non-Dom reddening my arse. That doesn't mean that I will decline the offer from Local-Dom ;), but the girl longs for another.

      L

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  2. It sounds like the current arrangement is pretty darn ideal, in that you have a dominant who can top you and fill that need, while your non-Dom appears to be not only encouraging, but also turned on by the privilege of sending you off to be used and punished . . .

    I'm just glad that my comment led to constructive thought and action, that is gratifying to me!

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    1. Ahh Michael..returning to the scene of the crime (said with a big smile and lots of humour). Ideal, and not so ideal. As I said above in answer to FD, the ideal would be non-Dom waking to be Dom. Until then I feel like its just 'topping from the bottom' with him.
      Enter Local-Dom stage left.

      L

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  3. It sounds like it isn't "To pretend to serve (that vernacular again)" - but serving or being topped within a set context. Esp if your non-Dom (the irony - since you are being topped at his behest, not a non-Dom thing) has asked it of you - it isn't pretend, it is specific in time and scope. BTW - i hope it works out for all three of you.

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    1. Greengirl, you make an excellent point. I think non-Dom is flexing his Dom though he is on a very slow journey. There is a context to consider, that within certain parameters the service is very real. Maybe what I am attempting to describe is an authentic experience..so rather than the word 'pretend', there is a sense that what I will experience with Local-Dom is inauthentic. That rests in my hands to reframe. I just need to get over that hill that says nothing and noone will do if he is not my non-Dom. Mental note to self....get over thyself! :).
      Oh! and ps greengirl, thanks for dropping by and taking time to comment.

      L

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