In the beginning of my discoveries I played sometimes with a dominant role and though I enjoyed aspects of it, I didn't get a kick out of being dominant, owning the control. The root of my pleasure lay in the fact that I was pleasing him, that I was giving him pleasure, that he was smiling with the experience. My bliss comes in being controlled and continuing to please him.
I can switch, but I don't like to and I have had little practice at it. If I was to switch I imagine I would look like a little girl stumbling about in mummy's shoes and lipstick, cute but not commanding, something not quite 'right'.