I want need and crave exploration, but as desperate as I am to be taken in hand in real life by a Dom man I am equally as desperate not to adversely effect my primary relationship. This is the main reason, the only reason I have moved so slowly with a real life experience.
Strange feelings, anxiety. As life aligns itself for our first meeting. Just a meeting. A quiet drink. There is no going back.
He has been patient, my brat has emerged.. again the anxiety. Just jump I hear my self-talk say. Why is this so hard for me? What am I really scared about? I know myself. Once its done I will wonder why I fussed so much.
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