Sometime ago one of my fellow bloggers and I'm sorry to not remember which one, wrote about the 'oh shit!' moment. That moment when it dawns that you have entered a situation that you dreamed about, fantasised about, encouraged and even asked for, maybe even begged for (I have been known to beg :)). Well it dawns on me the situation is upon me, there's no turning back, there's only forward, one way, no U turn. It dawns on a girl that in taking that direction she'd better fasten her seat belt.
I had that moment this morning. I woke early determined to go and do some exercise, checked my email, and there was a message. It was from the bad man, my addiction. Most unusual, he has never emailed before and certainly not with an instruction, a demand. I could feel the earth shift beneath my feet as I saw our interaction with each other shift into a new dimension...I could get a little too used to this, though I suspect it won't be for long. A small vacation which I am going on.
But there was the 'oh shit' moment. He said he was nasty, he said he would push..I don't think I quite believed him, but I am hopping on the train. The fast thundering train and hoping like hell I don't fall off.